My life before Jesus… lost.
What I mean by that is, I had no direction. No navigation. No truth. I didn’t like or love myself before Jesus. I feel like I was a womanizer. I just used people in general to get what I thought I was missing. I filled empty parts of me with fleeting things and people I thought I needed. I was lonely.
At this point in my life, 2012-2013, I found myself a divorced single Dad, overwhelmed, feeling despair but I was determined to set things right. Finally. I had nowhere else to go but to my knees. I prayed a lot about everything to God: for guidance, for peace, for wisdom. I felt his calling. It felt like a small pull to the light out of darkness. It was the small voice in the back of my head.
I started to go to church some Sundays. At work, one of my friends introduced me to Waterline. That’s where I fell in love with God and my friends (my community). I got baptized at Waterline in 2013. I started to serve in first impressions. Then a lady knocked me off my feet one service in June of 2014. Her name is Michelle. Shortly after that, we were engaged. 6 months later we were married. We now have a 1 ½ year old, Juliann and my wife became a wonderful mother to my 2 other children. God has seriously blessed our family in so many ways. A huge one of them is Waterline. Our relationship here between our pastors, John and Danielle, and Travis who is basically my brother and best friend, our small groups where we share life together, our family: my parents, Michelle’s parents and siblings are all here at Waterline.
I had to let go of a lot of things in life to give it to God. I had to wait in patience for things to happen in his timing. It’s hard, don’t get me wrong I still do. He is the lighthouse and we are the boats trying to make our way through all the fog and storms of life. The thing is I started to see myself change. I started to love myself through the eyes of God. That’s the reason I responded. God also responded. He has given me so much more to be grateful for. He still continues to do so to this day.
My words for life after God is grateful and beautiful.